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Job prospects, driving and blogging for fun|Where I’m at right now

I felt like writing a blog post but I couldn’t think of an “idea” so I thought I’d just talk about how my life is going at the mo.

After spending almost two years trying to get a job, I decided that it would be a good idea to try and get some retail experience in a charity shop. I wasn’t getting jobs because I was a total noob with very little relevant work experience. I kinda wish I did charity work sooner but ah well. Saying that I did try when I was 14 but the places I went to were full or they wanted me to be 16. So I’m starting at a local charity shop today, I went in to speak to the assistant manager yesterday and she was so nice so I feel way less nervous about going in! It’s a PDSA charity shop & I love animals so it all works out perfectly.

In other news I’ve had to postpone my driving test again because my instructor doesn’t think I’m quite ready yet. I’m kinda sad but also really relieved too because I don’t think I’m quite ready yet tbh. I don’t see the point in rushing into it as that’s going to be a waste of money and I might as well wait so that I do my test when I’m ready and feel as though I can actually pass.

I’ve got one week left of school and I cannot wait for it to be over because I’m so tired of it. I’m going to Scotland during the holidays so I’m hoping to write some posts about that, hopefully I’ll manage to write a couple and not just one because I have a lot of ideas. I’ve also made my tattoo consultation appointment so hopefully if that all goes well I’ll be getting a tattoo within the next few weeks as well which is quite exciting!

Blog wise, I’ve decided that I won’t be renewing my blog hosting in November and I’ll be reverting back to being a WordPress.com blog. I was quite on the fence about this decision until recently, I’m now excited about going back to being a non self hosted blog! I’ll feel much much happier while blogging and I’ve finally decided that my blog is 100% just for fun. No worries about growing my following or trying to make money from it all. If it happens by itself a few years down the line then great! But it’s no longer a priority. For this reason I also went ahead and deleted my blog ig, I made it because I thought that’s what bloggers had to do but not anymore!

I think those are the most interesting things that are happening at the moment so there we go.

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Until next time 🙂

Career plans and UCAS

So at the beginning of this week I had to go into school and start on my university application. It only took me two hours because I did all of this last year so I knew what to do, plus my form tutor has known me for years and is an absolute gem who let me leave early after I had done my draft of my personal statement.

While I have been researching universities for months now, full well knowing that I will be applying to them in Autumn, it was so odd sitting in my room and putting in all the uni and course codes. This time it’s real! I have applied to many things in my life, and I’ve been filling in forms for my family (and others!) for a long long time. But I have never felt the way I felt when I was entering all those codes while sitting on my bed, I found it hard to breathe and my heart was about jump out of my freaking chest. In that moment I couldn’t understand why, it’s not like I’m submitting it now!

But I think it was just the concept of it all, you know UniversityThe big thing that I’ve been building up to ever since I stepped into school. While it is still just education, it’s no longer “just school” where you see your friends everyday and your teacher will be reminding you about that piece of homework you need to hand in. You’ll be on your own effectively, and having to motivate yourself every step of the way.

While I seem like a nervous wreck about going to uni, I’m also really excited. In a way I’ve never really been excited about education before! I put that down to finding a course and career I’m really interested in. Like, really interested in. That course, ladies and gentlemen, is none other than Forensic science. That’s right, I wanna wander around crime scenes in a marshmallow looking hazard suit for a living. There’s more to it of course, but I’m dead excited to get started.

For this reason, and this reason alone, I’m incredibly grateful to year 12 me for failing chemistry AS. Because if I hadn’t I would’ve ended up applying to do forensic psychology. Which is ok I guess but by the end of exams I wanted to burn anything I owned that was remotely related to my psychology A levels. Can’t imagine I’d enjoy three years of degree level of psychology…

I also visited my local uni on a science trip and we spent the whole day in the building where all the practical stuff for my course would be taught. And the person leading the whole event was the person who teaches forensic science so :O While it isn’t my first choice of uni, I’m planning on having it as my insurance choice as the entry requirements are lower than the others and I would still enjoy going there.

Wow I wasn’t expecting this post to be this long…

Well I’ll try not to make it any longer! I hope this post was somewhat interesting, until next time 🙂

Your local bi gal

So I can’t remember if I ever gathered the courage to post it but I remember writing a blog post last year about being bicurious. It was just before I set up this blog so I’m not sure how many of you guys had read it, if I even posted it! But that was back in October 2017. Then after much contemplation, I realised I really was bi. Just before my 18th birthday no less, people on social media quickly found out because why not tell a bunch of strangers and internet friends?? They’re probably the most open minded people I will ever know.

I'm bi!

Telling people in real life though? That was a struggle. My boyfriend already knew because he was the one I discussed it all with to figure it all out and he was chill with it. I kept quiet about it for a while and then I decided I was ready to tell some close friends. I tried to do it in person but I’m sure we can all agree that would be terrifying. So I decided to go down the messaging route. It went well too! One guy was like cool and then two other friends just had a million questions about being bi and that was all.

Would I ever tell my parents? No, never. They don’t know I have a boyfriend and they’d be furious over that, I don’t need to also add that I have the hots for women. I’m good, thanks.

I just felt like pride month was the perfect time to write this post so here we are! I am open to doing a bi q and a post, leave me questions on twitter and I’ll compile them into a post or curious cat if you want to be anonymous!

Until next time 🙂

To think about nothing

Now you may be thinking what is this kid going on about, but just bear with me.

Recently I’ve come to realise that it’s rare for people in this day and age to just sit still and think about nothing, in other words meditation. While I don’t meditate everyday, I do sit with myself from time to time and just empty my mind.

And when I’m done, it truly feels like I’m waking up from a good nap. Not the kind that leaves you groggy and unaware of which decade you’re in.

You may think it’s useless to meditate because, who has the time? And there, in that question, is the reason why you should. You’ll make time to go to an event you don’t care about and to talk to that person that you really don’t like and yet, you can’t take 10 minutes out of your day to just… be?

We’ve all formed a dangerous habit of not allowing ourselves time to be with ourselves and now it’s become normal to be unable to be alone with your thoughts. It’s normal to scroll mindlessly through Instagram for hours and you feel as though your life just might implode if you can’t go on your phone.

But it’s not normal, your brain needs switch off time that isn’t just you falling asleep with stinging eyes after scrolling (again, aimlessly) through Instagram. You need to be actively allowing your mind to settle and to be able to gently pull it back on course when you start thinking about the homework you need to do or that form you need to fill out.

Social media, while useful at times, has made it far too easy to constantly be wasting time doing nothing productive while you tell me you cant spare 10 minutes to meditate and reflect on how you’re really feeling. During meditation you can allow yourself to become really aware of how you’re feeling and to check in on your body too. You’d be surprised how much you don’t notice in the hustle and bustle of life.

Maybe give it a try, and I mean an actual try not a half assed attempt at sitting still for two minutes then going on your phone. Put your phone on silent, get into a comfortable sitting position and let yourself be.

If you do try it, be sure to let me know how it goes!

Until next time 🙂

Post exams!

HELLO EVERYONE

It feels good to blogging once again without exams looming over my tired head! I had my last exam today and it went decently I think but I’ll find out just how decently on results day. Anyhow, with blogging, I’m not sure if I’ll go back to having a schedule? I’ll just post as and when I feel like it (More regularly of course) until school starts and then I’ll start up a schedule so that I can keep track of everything.

I have many ideas buzzing around that I’ll try to get into soon! Some of which will be about my holiday this summer, possibly about my first tattoo when I get it, the new lifestyle I’m trying to lead and much more!! I can’t wait to get stuck into my blog again, I changed the theme of it a while back and I think I quite like it. It’s much cleaner I feel, do you agree?

Spencer is also doing great by the way, I know I haven’t really mentioned her since I got her! We’re getting closer and she’s now jumping up at me for pets!

Honestly I think that’s all I’ve got to say for now!

Until next time 🙂

Venturing into a better life

Going vegan & Becoming a minimalist

So the past few days I’ve been really getting into Madeleine Olivia’s videos on YouTube, which I would highly recommend by the way, and she talks about minimalism and veganism. Two things that intrigued me but seemed unreachable at this point in life. As I’m still living at home and all.

But now I feel like I can maybe still achieve them, I realised I’m a very all or nothing kind of person which isn’t the most useful mindset to have sometimes. It would make more sense to start slowly, build up better habits and be far more likely to succeed. Instead of throwing myself into it all and more than likely fail because I couldn’t keep up with such a massive change in lifestyle.

At first I was trying to think of a way to encompass being a vegan and a minimalist into one word because they seem interlinked if you’re considering the environmental side of things, which I am. But I didn’t know how to so we’ll stick with just saying both the names until I come to a better idea. So here’s a quick break down of what I’m planning on doing, I’ll probably have more detailed posts going up about the individual topics later on.

 

So first with minimalism I’d just like to clarify, when I say minimalism I don’t mean the aesthetic of all white homes with barely anything in them. I just mean living a slightly less cluttered life, with fewer useless possessions taking up space that I don’t have. Plus, a large part of it for me is helping the environment. Buying less stuff =  creating less waste. Simple really!

My main aim is to attempt to reduce how much plastic I throw away because I’m sure all of you have heard one thing or another about how much plastic is in our seas and the horrific effects it’s having on marine life. It shocked me when I realised just how much plastic we use and dispose of every single day. So I’m hoping to take steps to reduce that, more to come on that. I’ve also heard a lot about fast fashion and its less than ideal impact which I will try to write a post about in the future, that’s a whole other story that I don’t fully have the resources to delve into right now.

I’ve already filled a large box full of my stuff that I plan to donate, I will be writing a post about in the near future I’m sure. It was such a freeing experience and I don’t think I’ve ever gotten rid of that much stuff in one go before!

And then, becoming a vegan. *gasp* I’ve gotten negative reactions before when I’ve mentioned that I wanted to go vegan but they hardly bother me now. I’m becoming more and more aware of the issues within the farming industry, and the huge impact it has on the environment. Going vegan will just be my own little way of helping the earth. I don’t have all my aims and goals set out for this one just yet, but it’s something I’ll be working on soon!

I don’t think I’ll be having a blogging schedule for a while, I still have exams and all but I’ve been feeling inspired which was really needed so I’ll post when I can!

Until next time 🙂

For the wrong reasons

Hello there, I know it’s been a while since I’ve been around these parts. But I’m back for a bit, not permanently though because of my looming exams.
But I’ve been thinking about how I’ve been unknowingly stressing about this blog instead of enjoying it like I used to. And by used to I mean before I went self hosted, I’ve been worrying about trying to make back the money that’s been put into self hosting that I wasn’t even enjoying my blog anymore. But I realise now that I’ve been stressing and so I’m working to rectify that and go back to enjoying my blog without thinking about making money from it. Which isn’t the easiest thing to do when your blog is barely 7 months old anyway!
I have until November to decide whether I want to renew my self hosting and domain fees but until then I’m hoping to enjoy blogging instead of turning into the job I never wanted. As much as I enjoy blogging, I never really wanted to turn it into a full time job. I can’t see myself enjoying a stay at home blogger job and I’m not sure why I started to think I wanted that just because I went self hosted. Sure I wouldn’t mind getting some money but a full on salary was never the goal.
So maybe I will go back to being WordPress hosted or maybe I’ll stay self hosted, either way I will be continuing on with my little blog. And enjoying it.
Until next time (which will probably be around midway through June)

Things I want do Spring/Summer 2018

With the weather starting to get better and better, I’ve been itching to change things up a bit! Spring is officially here, I’ve gone out in just a light jacket instead of a coat and not frozen to death so we’re good!!

After watching some of Kalyn Nicholson’s recent videos and reading her blog posts, I wanted to create my own little bucket list for these coming warmer months. You guys know how much I love my lists!

So here it is, straight outta my journal:

  • Ride my bike that’s been hiding in my garage for god knows how long
  • Do yoga more, without the pressure of having to do it all perfectly
  • Get my nose pierced
  • Get my second ear piercings (Possibly a third on one ear!)
  • Really go through and clear out things I don’t actually need
  • Take way more pictures with my camera
  • Read new books instead of rereading
  • Be more creative with my food
    • What I mean by this is to put more effort into my lunches instead of taking some crisps and a chocolate bar to school because it’s easier

Until next time!

 

Don’t speak ill of others, or yourself

In one of my posts early last month, this one, I talked about how I have grown to be more positive over the years. I briefly mentioned how not gossiping about other people can really have an impact so I thought this week I’d go into more depth about it.

While I still think it’s healthy to vent to a trusted person about someone who has hurt you, I don’t think it’s healthy to continuously do so for a long period of time to just anyone who will listen. I’m SO guilty of this, I went on and on about a friendship break up I had for a year after it had happened and it took me a while to realise how unnecessary I was being. Instead of letting that wound heal I just kept opening it up over and over again. A key thing here is that no one told me I was being unnecessary, while I may have been repetitive it was still an interesting thing for people to listen in on. Everyone likes a bit of drama. It’s not like anything I was saying was new, people had heard it all before, there is only so much to a story and there’s no need to tire out all the details. The people I had this “break up” with were seemingly fine and carrying on with their lives. I just needed to get over myself. So I did, because there’s nothing left to talk about.

In general, being bitter about someone else’s life choices will rarely ever make yours better. Nor does it make you a better person. So what if that girl in your maths class like to sleep with a different guy every week? So what if that guy likes to be really extra with his revision? What does it even matter to you? If you spend all your time watching other people’s lives, you’ll just be wasting your own.

But, you can’t just gossip by yourself now can you? Watch what kind of people you hang around with, they’re the ones that influence you to bitch about people. Not just friends mind you, family too, my mum often talks about people negatively and I regularly have to call her out on it. Not that she enjoys it.

Something else I’ve noticed, it’s all well and good not talking smack about other people. But nothing will ever be more damaging than talking like that about yourself. People harp on about not talking about other people, but having positive self talk is the best thing you could ever do for yourself. If you start building this habit, it’s far less likely that you’ll be kicking yourself when you’re already down. Or alternatively, it’ll mean that you’re far less likely to take what bitter people say about you to heart.

Challenge yourself, maybe just for a day, or perhaps even a week, don’t allow yourself to say negative things about someone else or yourself. You’ll be surprised by how often you’ll catch yourself, I definitely was and still am. Do I still think these things? Absolutely! But there’s no real need for me to be giving off that type of negative energy. It’s not an easy thing to do but you’d be proud of yourself for trying!

Please do tweet, comment or dm me what you think of all of this! Have you tried this? Or, even better, are you going to give it a go?

Until next time 🙂

My new bunny!

So if any of you follow me on instagram/twitter (which you totally should be, @wolfishdelight on both) you will have seen me telling you about my new rabbit! So naturally I thought I’d write a post about her!

So, I named her Spencer and yes it was after Spencer Hastings from PLL. I get most of my name inspiration from TV show characters. I was gonna call her either Spencer or Rosa, as in Rosa Diaz from Brooklyn nine nine. But Spencer seemed to fit her better because she is quite the smarty pants! Her breed is Dutch and she’s just gone 3 months old. I would insert pictures but I don’t have many good ones yet, keep an eye on my Instagram, I’m sure she’ll appear on there soon!

Update: I got a nice picture of her this morning so here ya go!

Lil Dutch black and white bunny

I’m keeping her in a pet enclosure, the kind that’s made up of metal panels and are hooked together to make a square/hexagon/octagon, you get the idea. I currently have it as a hexagon but I might try to make it bigger, if I can make the space in my room. I read enough about how store bought cages aren’t enough for rabbits and I was not about to keep her outside in a hutch either.

I got her after school on Friday 23rd March, and it only took her a few hours to start to get settled in. She was coming up to the panels of her enclosure and sticking her nose out to smell my hands! Then Saturday morning she woke me up nice and early at 6:30am by running around her enclosure (clearly she has enough room then!) and banging into the panels because she was hungry. I fed her and then I decided to give something new a go. I got a cushion and sat down in-front of the enclosure door and opened it up to see how she’d react.

She certainly wasn’t shy! She jumped right out and has been exploring my room. We’ve gotten some bonding in and she’s been peeing and pooping everywhere but I’m sure we’ll figure out! I’ve even managed to get her to let me stroke her which is pretty great considering I’ve only had her for a few days.

I think that’s mostly all I’ve got on Spencer for now, I’ll definitely be writing more posts about her/rabbit care in the future!

Until next time 🙂