So as some of you may know, I failed chemistry in year 12 so I took a different subject and am now staying an extra year in sixth form. It seemed like a big deal when happened but I’m glad it did because it allowed me to find a new course that I’m mega excited to study at uni, I’ve never truly been this excited about any of the other courses I was considering. Plus I’m far more capable of possibly getting high grades this time!
While it took my mum a while to come round and not be as disappointed as she was in me, she eventually did and for the most part my dad’s been ok with it too. So now we’re at a good place.
Last night my parents went to this birthday party and an old friend/my past tutor was also there. Upon finding out about me staying an extra year she made comments about how I could’ve worked harder or changed the subject earlier on. I mean it’s none of her business really and only I know how much I struggled both in school and with my mental health that year, easily the worst year in my life atm. Plus add in the fact that I didn’t have my own room in the months leading up to my exams due to construction so my bed was set up in the living room….
It just frustrates me how people look down on you if you’re staying an extra year, as if I’ve just completely screwed up my life. I’m going to uni one measly little year after my peers and in the grand scheme of things, I doubt it’s going to matter all that much.
There’s so much pressure on teenagers to stay within these strict time limits, forgetting that we also do have the rest of our lives to accomplish things. Some people realise what they actually want to do in their 20s, 30s, 40s. It’s unfair to expect 18 year olds to pick their careers and map out our entire lives when only weeks before you’re making us ask permission to go to the toilet and our opinions are disregarded because we’re only teenagers.
Even the word teenagers has negative connotations.
I’m not ashamed about staying an extra year and I’m sure as hell not ashamed for failing chemistry, that shit was hard and I tried my best given the situation. I think people need to mind their own business, I know what I’m doing with my life and I’m excited! At the end of the day, that’s all that matters to me.
Until next time 🙂