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~ A peek into my mind ~

Me vs clothes sizes

*There is a lot of mention of body sizes, clothes sizes etc please don’t read this if you’re not comfortable with that*

So I have been a size 10 in clothes for a while, maybe since I was 14/15? I’m currently 17, and I now fit more into size 12s and 14s. When I first started buying size 12 clothes in shops I wasn’t too bothered because it wasn’t very often that I needed them, and after all it was only one size bigger than usual. Then I started shopping for clothes online, and I was already a bit sceptical of the sizing so I measured myself and used the size guide charts because size 10 on one site is a size 8 or 12 on another.

I quickly found that according to a few sites, I was a size 14. This was for a skirt btw. So I was like well ok then and I bought the skirt, it’s now my favourite skirt and I wear it very frequently! I was in primark last week and I got some mom mum jeans, in a size 12, I wasn’t completely sure whether it would fit but I thought I’d be fine.

It was not fine.

I probably need to get a size 14 or possibly 16. Which are bordering on my mum’s sizes for clothes which freaks me out a bit. They truly will be mum jeans 😮

The struggle for us women, is that our hips and boobs throw things slightly out of wack som- yeah no, all the time. I do love my body and if we’re talking about body shapes then I have an hour glass figure, which in theory is lovely but when it comes to shopping then it’s a bit of a struggle. Slouchy t shirts ftw! May I just add that even though I’m going up in sizes, my weight is the same and if anything some parts of me have slimmed down.

I did freak out a little bit when I realised how my clothes sizes had changed and I’ve always been content as a size 10 because I thought that was average, at least that was what I was lead to believe. However a quick google search shows that the average dress size in the UK is currently 16, so why am I freaking out? I am still average, and I’m the happiest I have ever been with my body so really these numbers shouldn’t mean anything. Just a way for me to find the clothes that fit my body, not an identifying factor.

To add to my confusion further, apparently some magazines class anyone above size 12 as “plus size”, I mean they’re kidding right? I don’t really mind being called plus size but I’m not actually plus sized, I’m average sized as are many of my friends so if we’re considered plus sized then what are we saying about the women who actually classify as plus sized? It’s so unfair to throw an average sized woman onto the cover a magazine and applaud yourself for your poor excuse of plus sized representation.

Honestly, anyone else beginning to think magazines only exist to lower our self esteem sheesh….

Now, I really don’t know where I was going with this post and it turned into a bit of a rant but there we go! What are your thoughts on clothing companies and their wildly different sizes and magazines with their unrealistic expectations?

Until next time! 🙂

Source: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/fashion/london-fashion-week/the-average-size-in-the-uk-is-a-16-so-why-dont-we-see-that-on-th/ 

Staying productive during holidays

It feels like it has been a MILLENNIA since I last posted, this new once-a-week schedule needs some serious getting used to!

Anyway, onto today’s post!

My half term started today, which for you non UK folk is just a week off school around half way through term! While a week off was sorely needed because sixth form drains the life out of me and I just day dream about sleeping while my hand cramps from all the hurried note taking, I feel like I also needed this week off to get my productivity back on track!

For all my fellow students out there who want to relax but also not feel like you’re wasting valuable time, here are my three main tips!

To do lists!!

The first thing I do at the beginning of every holiday and weekend, is make a master to do list. I just write down everything I need to get done in that time frame, from here you can pick out a couple of things to work on every day of your holiday and before you know it you’ve done it all! I try to stick to a max of three things everyday so I don’t feel swamped with work to do! Anything more I choose to do is just a bonus!

Examples of things I’ve got on my list:

  • Recap physics
  • Make more psychology flashcards 
  • Work on Diploma assignment
  • Write up more posts to have scheduled (5 more before next holiday)
  • Keep room clean – Vacuuming, change bed sheets etc

Resisting the temptations of a day off

Another tip I’d like to give that might annoy some people, but hey whatever, don’t give yourself a whole day off at the start of the holiday. It’s just gonna turn into “Oh I’ll do it tomorrow” everyday, and  then you’re screwed. I gave myself a partial break on Saturday by rolling out of bed at quarter to 12, then I got on with writing the master list and worked through it. This blog post was one of the things on that list!

Don’t procrastinate

Tip number 3! Try to get stuff done in the mornings/afternoons, essentially get it done asap and then spend the rest of the day doing whatever you want! You’re more likely to have a bit more energy seeing as you probably woke up later, plus this way it doesn’t matter if you woke up late because you’ll still be getting everything done before you start doing more relaxation stuff.  Instead of binge watching that show on Netflix stressing about that assignment you need to do, just do the assignment and Netflix less stressfully later that evening! You’ll feel way better about yourself this way, and you’ll actually get things done!

So there we have it, the three main tips I follow to keep myself productive but still chilled during holidays! Do you think these tips were helpful? Or do you have some more tips that you think I should’ve added? Let me know!

Until next time 🙂

 

Donating my makeup!

So there is a lot of makeup I don’t use anymore or have never used but couldn’t return cos they had been opened. I have thought about selling them on depop or something but it felt like a bit too much effort if I’m being honest and I didn’t think anyone would even want them. So for a while they sat around my room just taking up space and I didn’t know what I could do but I heard from someone that you could donate your used, in good condition, makeup to women’s charities.

So I researched and I did in fact find somewhere to send my makeup! It’s a charity called Give and Makeup, they’re based in London. Started by Caroline Hirons, back in 2010 and now here I am talking about it!

So I started wandering around my room collecting makeup and other beauty items that I didn’t use and it turns out I had way more to give than I had originally thought.

Working our way from left to right and starting at the top, we have:

  • Two MUA liquid lipsticks that I never used once I had bought them because they were far too bright
  • A makeup revolution highlight I was given by a friend and then quickly realised I didn’t like either
  • A neutrogena oil free moisturiser that made my skin even oilier??
  • A V05 sea salt spray that was alright but I’ve found I don’t like the sea salt spray look on myself
  • Then we have all four of the foundations I own because they’re (respectively):
    • Too dark
    • Too pink toned
    • Bit pale
    • And waayyy too pale, never used it (bought it when I was a complete makeup noob)
    • Plus I don’t like the way any of these foundations (or just foundations in general) look or feel on my skin so I don’t exactly need them anymore
  • In the midst of these foundations I have an Avon dead sea mud mask I don’t really use
  • The new makeup revolution concealer I bought that’s way way too dark for me
  • And finally, a MUA eyeshadow palette that I’m not loving anymore

So, that’s everything I’m donating! I’ll be packaging these up and sending them off soon, I’d suggest you guys doing the same with your stuff! If you’re in the UK then I’d recommend that you check out their website as they have more information and guidelines! For example, pads and/or tampons! There’s a whole list of things you could donate!

I’ll also leave the addresses below (One for the UK and one for Wales) if you guys already have a selection of things to donate but you don’t know where to send them!

GIVE AND MAKEUP
PO BOX 855
LONDON
W4 4AW

Give and MakeUp c/o
Escentual.com
63-67 Wellfield Road
Cardiff
CF24 3PA

Until next time! 🙂

Being my own best friend

Being your own best friend, sounds like a bit of weird concept doesn’t it?

I’m at a point in my life where I feel very alone, I have a handful of people I can sort of rely on but I don’t feel comfortable doing so yet, plus I don’t think they could really help. I think I’m experiencing this specific part of my life to learn a very valuable lesson.

Time and time again I’ve realised that the only person I can truly rely on in my life is me, only I know how I’m feeling, only I’m going to be there during my 2am breakdowns. It only makes sense that I take care of myself does it not?

I’ve spent the majority of my life not being truly in tune with how I’ve been feeling, until I was about 15 I simply ignored anything that was uncomfortable and locked it away in an effort to not feel such things. That’s just how I learned to cope.

But now, a few months away from being 18, I’ve begun to feel everything. At quite an intense level. These waves of emotion have forced me to address what’s wrong with me and talk it out, with myself. Can you imagine trying to shove a whole ocean into a little box? It’s a hell of a lot scarier but a much better idea to let the ocean be and let the waves do their thing. The waves being my emotions, as you have probably gathered.

In amongst the emotional turmoil I’ve been experiencing these past few weeks, I’m happy to say that after a while of moping I eventually manage to talk myself into seeing the silver lining or perhaps accepting that I’m going to be suffering for the same reasons in the near future, and more importantly knowing that the situation is not something I can control.  I know I’m gonna be hurting regardless of what I do, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be a friend to myself and find ways to take care of myself at my lower points in life. For example for an upcoming ~situation~, I’ve planned out shows to watch, books to read and work outs to do, in an effort to keep myself busy and hopefully make myself tired enough that I’ll fall asleep quickly.

I’ve learnt from countless hours of psychology lessons about how avoiding things that induce anxiety will only reinforce the fear, so I’m trying to be at peace with such anxiety inducing stimuli in hopes of helping myself get over them. While the fear is very much so still there and I really don’t want those things to happen, I’ve almost convinced myself this is a good idea. Almost. Plus there is no alternative, I have to learn to cope with these things.

I hope my rambles have made sense. The only person you truly have in your life is yourself, so treat yourself right.

Until next time 🙂

 

A little bit about my hair growth

So back in March 2017, I donated quite a large chunk of my hair. I did have a post about it on my old blog but I’ll just insert pictures here as that blog is now private:

Me with my hair facing the camera, my hair is uneven but down to my waist

Quite uneven but so long!

Me now with my hair just past my shoulders, it's actually nice and even now

Looks a lot neater that’s for sure

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Then in August I dyed the ends of my hair purple and I was in a seriously weird mood a few days after and cut my hair back to how short it was originally (about 13 inches). Not sure why I did that but oh well, it got rid of the majority of the bleached and dyed parts of my hair.

Then I started missing my long hair, which by the way I hadn’t gotten professionally cut in about 5 years. That’s why it looks so uneven, it was right down to my butt and then I got bored and cut it back up to my waist and still wasn’t satisfied!

Anyhoo, I’ve been measuring my hair every month since November (a whole three months!) to see how it has been progressing  and I’ve been taking active steps to take care of it so it can grow and be as healthy as possible! For those who were wondering, here are the measurements:

  • November: 16 inches
  • December: 17 inches
  • January: 18.5 inches

I may start tweeting out the updated measurements if anyone is curious?

Now I was surprised by the sudden change from 1 inch every month to 1.5 inches this month. So I figured that the most likely reason was that my hair grows naturally at about 1 inch per month and at the beginning of January I started experimenting with putting raw aloe vera gel in my hair. So maybe that was the cause for the extra 0.5 inch? I can’t think of anything else that I did differently, so I’m going to just owe it to that for now.

So I’ve started applying aloe vera gel to my roots and coconut oil to the rest of my hair about half an hour before I wash it. Even if it wasn’t the reason for the boost in hair growth, it’s still really good for my hair so I’m hoping to stick to this! Another tip I would offer is to wash you hair as little as you can manage, I knocked it down from three times a week to twice a week and my hair is benefiting from it!

Until next time 🙂

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You don’t want kids??

As a girl, I’ve noticed that the topic of whether I want children crops up every so often, sometimes teachers just talk as though they expect all of us to have children. And my answer usually shocks the people asking, some even seem offended.

Most people I’ve talked to start interrogating me as to why I don’t want them, as if I should have a presentation ready to show them. I get told I’ll want them in the future, I get told my life will be boring without them and on and on.

But let me tell you why I don’t want kids, maybe in the future I can direct future interrogators to this blog post!

  • Pregnancy is uncomfortable and puts you in an incredibly vulnerable position
  • Child birth is incredibly painful and my vagina doesn’t deserve that
  • I can’t stand the idea of spending the rest of my life dedicated to making sure this tiny human doesn’t become a screw up
  • Children are expensive
  • They’re messy
  • I want to go on holidays to relax, not be frustrated because little Jimmy over here forgot his teddy at home and wants to have a tantrum instead of getting on the plane. Plus flights are cheaper during off peak season
  • Getting good amounts of sleep
  • Really don’t like the idea of having someone depend on me like that
  • I just want to live for me and be as relaxed as I can be with my partner, instead of stressing about dress up day and exams
  • Also I don’t really like children, like I won’t be a huge dick to them but I would rather not have to be around them

A much better alternative for me would be pets!! Maybe a rabbit, cat or a dog! Maybe all three! They’re cute, fluffy and won’t talk back to me.

What are your thoughts, do you want kids or not?

Until next time 🙂

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Sex | My introduction

So, sex.

I did say I’d end up talking about it so let’s not be too scandalised here! I’ve been trying to break into the world of comfortably and casually talking about sex on my blog but I didn’t know how to so naturally, I just went ahead and did it!

I watch the likes of Hannah Witton and Melanie Murphy on YouTube, both of whom I think are fantastic women and I seriously need to get round to buying their books! Of the many many things that are amazing about them, they both comfortably speak about sex and all sex related things without the awkwardness. In a way I think sex should be talked about anyway, because it is normal and shouldn’t be considered as something taboo or even life changing. You won’t become a whole new person just because you had sex, trust me. Nor will anyone notice!

Sex can be a wonderful experience that you share with someone, it doesn’t have to be someone you’ve been in a relationship with for years if you don’t want it to be. Consent is key and please wait til you’re of legal age… On that note, just because you are of legal age doesn’t mean you have to have sex asap. Even if it feels great (?) to be able to say you’ve had sex, eventually you might regret rushing into just because it felt like everyone else was doing it. Some people are well into their 20s, 30s and beyond because they haven’t found someone they want to experience that with. And some people just don’t bother with it at all because it isn’t their jam, either way it’s all good.

Another tidbit of advice, I wouldn’t have high hopes for your first time. I highly doubt there will be fireworks going off in the background and if there were I’d be slightly worried about where it is that you’re having sex….

Big pink fireworks

Not all first time experiences are always horrific but because you’re just a tad inexperienced and if this is also your partner’s first time then you both have some fumbling around to do! Which just adds to the experience if I’m being honest, if you can find someone you can fumble (and fail with) and be able to laugh about it after (or even during!) then I think you’ve still had a successful experience!

There’s far more to this conversation that what I’ve merely outlined here, there will be more posts to come! Feel free to ask questions/leave ideas in the comments, on twitter or on Instagram! If I can answer them or write a post about them then I definitely will!

Until next time 🙂

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Why I probably won’t drink

So, alcohol. There’s a lowkey pressure to go to parties, drink alcohol and ~have fun~ once you hit your late teens/early 20s and beyond.

But what if I told you, brace yourselves here, that you could have fun without drinking? Shocking, I know.

Kermit the frog, looking very much drunk, lying on a bench with empty bottles of alcohol around him

I couldn’t resist!

All sarcasm aside, I don’t think there’s anything inherently wrong with drinking. It’s not a sin, just be as responsible as you can be and make sure you’re keeping yourself and others safe. So no drunk driving, seriously, there’s no need.

But just because I don’t disagree with it doesn’t mean I have to take part in it yknow? I just don’t think it’s my kinda thing in general. Loud parties and drunk sweaty teenagers? No thank you! I don’t enjoy the thought of not being as in control of what I say or do. I can only imagine the kind of things I’d end up saying to people if I didn’t  have a filter… *shudder*

I think if my some random chance I did decide to go to a party, I’d prefer to take care of my drunk-off-their-face friends and make sure they got home safe and sound.

Plus, I’ve seen countless family breakdowns within close family friends which may not have happened if there was no alcohol present. Of course alcohol is not the one solely to blame but I can’t help but think of it as an enabler. My temper isn’t exactly great and I don’t think alcohol could help, plus I’d rather not find that alcohol “helps”, using that term very loosely, with my mental illness and then start depending on it. In an extreme case of course. 

I thought I’d just write this post to say you’re not weird if you don’t wanna drink, it’s a perfectly normal standpoint to have and you shouldn’t let anyone make you feel like you have to drink to be interesting.

Until next time 🙂

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My tattoo ideas

Currently at the tender age of 17, I can’t get a tattoo yet but that doesn’t mean I haven’t started planning out all the different types of tattoos I want! I thought I’d share a few pictures of things that are similar to what I want when I eventually get round to getting one. I don’t think all of my tattoos are going to have really deep and meaningful reasoning behind them. I know some will, I’m thinking of getting a tattoo to do with my wedding day whenever that happens, but for the most part they’re just gonna be things that I think look really cool or just things that I like!

(I’ll be getting all my pictures from Pinterest, of course)


My favourite animals are wolves, simple enough reason for a tattoo, I’m not entirely sure why but I really like them! Plus I think this is way cooler than just getting a picture of a wolf tattooed.

So this one is a bookish one, of course, it’s similar to the kind of tattoo I want to do with the night court which is from the “A Court of Thorns and Roses” series by SJM. That series seriously helped me out in some sucky times so I’ve just become so invested in it that it only makes sense to have a tattoo to represent it on me. However I felt the same way about Twilight when I was 12 (I still love Twilight fully aware of it’s flaws, don’t hate) so we’ll see!

So this one, is fairly self explanatory. I don’t enjoy the darkness that comes with winter as you may have seen me rant about on twitter, and I even wrote a whole blog post about it here, but I really do love the moon. I’m not sure why but it’s just calming and ever so slightly enchanting.

I’m not one to put all my faith into horoscopes, but I do identify with the characteristics of my zodiac sign and I’m not sure what other reason there is but I just really like it ok. So I’m a Taurus, ruled by the planet Venus, an earth sign and apparently the flower for my sign is Delphinium. All of which are incorporated quite beautifully in the second one on the top row. I’m not sure if I’d want to include the flowers, as pretty as they are, I don’t feel all that strongly about them nor do I want any colour tattoos.

This is just a simpler wolf tattoo that I really liked the look of, it’s a wolf drawn with one line which I thought looked wicked.

I’m not entirely sure of placements yet, but I’m sure I’ll figure it out eventually! I obviously have some more meaningful tattoo ideas but I haven’t quite figured out what kinda picture I’d want to go with each idea.

Do you want to get tattoos? Or do you already have some?

Until next time 🙂

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Self hosting | My experience

This is gonna be a long one guys, get some snacks!

As some of you may be aware, I went self hosted and created this blog back in November. I was asked if I could talk about how it all went down for me, so here we go! (Just to say, this is all just from my experience with the sites I used and as a wordpress blogger. It might vary from other bloggers!)

I toyed around with the idea of self hosting for a few months, I already had a blog but I wasn’t satisfied with it so I thought I’d start fresh but with my new blog being self hosted. I researched A LOT. For an unemployed 17 year old, self hosting seemed like a huge huge investment. But I enjoyed blogging so much and I wanted to make it a bit more professional, maybe hope to start making money from it in a few years. On an off chance I told my parents about self hosting on the way home from London one weekend and they were all like “Why didn’t you tell us sooner??” They offered to help me out with the financial side and it seemed silly of me to turn it down.

Prices:

I spent the next few days immersed in hosting websites, making lists of who asked for how much, how much it would roughly be per month, how much it would cost for the second year (because a lot of sites offer a discount for the first year),  how much the domain would cost etc.

Because you have to also buy a domain as well as self hosting.

The general trend I found with most websites was that you paid for a whole year up front, there was none of that pay per month business, for the most part, which was why I was low key stressed out in the first place because most sites ask for £100+ by the time you’ve added things like security and a backup in case everything goes wrong. Ya girl doesn’t have that kinda cash lying around!

I ended up using godaddy for both my domain and self hosting and for the first year it totalled to £77.98 for the first year, and I believe the domain was free for this year. For the second year, however, it’ll move up to about £85 as I’d also be paying for the domain for this time. Which in all honesty is actually a pretty decent price, the other websites I looked into asked for £100+/year and I wasn’t willing to spend that much. Although websites are always having offers so you may be able to snap it up for a bit less for your first year!

The process:

So once you’ve chosen what kind of package you want and have chosen your new domain name, you pay of course, and then (if you’re a wordpress user) you’ll be given the option to download wordpress.org. Most self host sites offer one click installation so that it’s all clean and simple!

WordPress.com and wordpress.org are two different things, wordpress.com is where you’ve been hosted by wordpress and your work wasn’t really your own.  It could’ve been deleted by wordpress and you can’t really do much against that, for example. However with wordpress.org, this where you’re self-hosted. So, for example, you own your content and only you have the power to delete it. I hope that makes sense.

Now I had already started my blog as a wordpress.com blog while I finished doing blogtober on my old one. So I transferred what I had from this new blog to this one, to do that you go to the admin page of your blog (www.yourblogname.wordpress.com/wp-admin) and you should find a button somewhere that allows you to export your content (as an XML file), followers, comments etc. So that you can then import it into the new one. Now for me this was just one blog post and nothing else, seeing as I was starting fresh, but it’s nice to know you don’t lose everything. However, your theme will not transfer over to this blog. So the first thing you should probably do once you’ve imported your old content is to start playing around with the themes to figure out what you’d like.

After that, start seeing what kinda plugins you’d like to install! Which is something I don’t think you do with a wordpress.com blog. I would definitely recommend getting Jetpack as it shows you your stats the same way it did on wordpress.com, very useful! Don’t think too much about plugins, but do just rifle through and see what would benefit your blogging experience!

I appreciate this was a really long post, thank you if you’ve managed to get this far! I hope I’ve helped some people out and if you still have questions drop me a comment or a dm over on Twitter and I’ll try my best to answer it!

Until next time 🙂

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